If I was really honest with any body or myself this is what I would tell you..... I smoke and drink, regularily, I think it is a cry for help actually, I chew tabacco most all the time. I don\'t care about tomarrow, because that\'s not today. I have gone down hill since graduating highschool, I need something or somebody to snap me out of it. I just got dumped by a pretty blonde gal I dated all summer and now I\'m on the rebound and I have no morals or values of any kind. (I didn\'t have many before but now I\'m really pathetic) I\'m pretty easy and don\'t take care of myself. I\'m heading for disaster and don\'t know it. I work with my dad a 200 head cow/calf operation which I someday will acquire full partner, I don\'t know why because I don\'t know the first thing about balancing a check book and I\'ll probably end up losing it all at this rate. I don\'t do drugs of any kind except tobacco and alcohol. I have a low self esteem, obviously. I have a sister who is 6 and a brother who is 3, both who look up to me and if I don\'t change my ways, I won\'t being seeing much of them.